Speaking of illnesses

I wonder why I had become so weak. Actually its no wonder that my children don't get much immunity from me because I am in need of them myself. Almost every week or every other week, I'm down with some kind of sickness. Usually the early morning sinus will escalate into a cold, if I'm unlucky a fever, along with inflamation in the tonsils. Then I'll be down for a few days, with partial hearing, partial senses altogether actually. Food will not have taste and my mood is not at its best surely.

Today I'm suffering from something else. It was due to the smoke from my very hot pan from my negligience. The smoke filled the whole kitchen and I should have known better than to throw those 2 sticks of hotdog while the pan is that hot. I switched the fire off, but I must have inhaled what a heavy smoker might have smoked in a week. Now I can hardly breathe. I'm suffering from chest pains, difficulty in breathing and constant leaking due to excessive coughing; an old souvenier from child-bearing.

In Egypt, I was either having migraines or diarhhea or fever. Once in an airplane, I thought I almost lost my sight. There was also a terrifying near-death experience years ago, when I felt my air passage blocked and I couldn't breathe at all. I thought I was gonna die. At the hospital, the x-rays showed nothing, but as soon as I came out of the doctor's room, it attacked me again. Nurses put me down on a wheelchair. And soon, I could breathe again. But never had the chance to find out why. I am living with a breast lump for as long as I can remember. Gynae says its nothing, but I have not had time to make an appointment for a mamogram. There are also permanent scars from the skin allergy that broke out during the 1st pregnancy. In my childhood, I had broken an arm and a leg on 2 separate accidents - the leg is visibly crooked.

I consider myself healthy, or at least, I consume healthy food. I dislike oily food and would subsitute olive oil for oil when I can. I don't drink sweet drinks, only juice even then, diluted with water. I eat fruits and yogurt. So, I don't know why I became like this. But if those sicknesses are God's way of deducting my previous and current bad records, then I shall accept it. Alhamdulillah. It's better to suffer here than later...if you know what I mean.