Anxiety Attack!

Ok, here we go. The official 9th month of pregnancy, 3rd trimester, labour almost due.. unfortunately, unpredictably anytime from now. Scared? Nervous? Excited? Anxious? But can't turn back the clock, there is only ONE road to go, and that is to the delivery room. It doesn't help that my must-have-chocolates-phase-everyday-in-whatever-form has just started. There is also the can't-eat-anything-but malay food-phase going on since returning from Egypt. What is a girl to do? (Girl konon --- dah jadi mak budak pun!)

Invite friends over for an asian meal of Lemak Nenas Ikan Sepat Cili Api and Sambal Tumis Petai Udang (got Petai in Germany, Donch pray pray!), with condiments of keropok udang, sambal belachan, cucur and serunding lah - which was flown in 2 weeks ago by my beloved Mak. Wished I had them phtographed, but these days digicam is not working properly due to the 'gentle treatment' it gets from Binti. But alah, I'm not the best cook in the world, but alhamdulillah, everything turned out 'boleh-tahan' for a kampung food novice. It has been a never-ending feast of Authentic home-cooked Asian food for me, listing from Laksa, Mutton Curry, Mee Goreng, Sambal Tumis Sardin, Epok2, and boy, can't remember what else. Poor Habibi and Binti lah because on days like those, they will only get something simple I can whip up quickly, usually soup dishes, since they can't join me and my chillied companies. And that's not all, after being here awhile, some of that cup-of-tea-piece-of-cake European culture has also rubbed on me greatly. We have guests over weekends pretty often and usually its an invitation for dinner or cakes! Alamak, never liked baking before but today, can proudly say that I've conquered the Pecan Nuts Brownie, Cheesecake, Carrot Cake, Apple Pudding Cake and this afternoon, have attempted to make Chocolate Hazelnut Cookies. Yesterday, I finally bought a muffin baking tray which was going on half-price and am patiently waiting for the best berries season before I start whipping the aromatic dough. Aiyoh, a whole paragraph on food, not very like me to talk about food non-stop. This is bad. Very bad. Doesn't help that I'll have quite a baggage to get rid of after delivery!!! (Inshallah)

Ohh, is there a link between Anxiety and food that I read somewhere before? Perhaps. I hope the tiny one inside is doing well with cili padis and sweetened chocolates...erm.

So When? How? What? Who? And all those questions expectant mothers have inside their heads just before THE day. Natural or not? Painkillers or not? Baby's head in the right position or not? Why doppler tests not as frequent as the first pregnancy? In fact, even gynae visits are only once a month, not in every 2 weeks at the end of pregnany, like last time, why? How to breathe during contractions? I can hardly remember how, must call the Hebamme (midwife) for some last minute breathing classes. Back aching like crazy, also not like the first pregnancy. Just being in any position for more than 10 minutes is terribly uncomfortable. Heavier, clumsier, more forgetful are just a few things that comes with it.

Already bought 2 sets new baby boy's clothes- that was fun and took the stress out of delivery anxiety quite a bit. Looking at the very cute little blue-stripped shirt with a tiny brown woolen knitted vest over it, is very refreshing after lots of Binti's pinks and flowers.

Been praying everyday for a safe delivery for both 'Adik' and me. Pray for me too friends, :) cos, though I'm a big girl now, I'm still quite scared...