The thing about family

I am home. Or the place I once called Home. I have mixed feelings about it now. Used to look forward to every trip, but this time, I was not so anxious to get here. I have good reasons too. It has already been ...a little more than 2 weeks? Besides my family whom I am spending most times with, there is really nothing else here, except the fact that I can walk down the grocery shop by myself. Nothing else fascinates me.

Tried to call Abah two times. He wasn't home when i called. Got his mobile number, but there was no answer, probably because he was busy working. The first time I called my half-brother answered, he was kind and polite, and I wonder about him. We've never lived in the same house before, it is sad that the only thing we both share is my father's genes. The 2nd time, my step mother who answered wasn't as hospitable. I was actually a little shocked. She was harsh and snappy, not like before. I was taken aback. Of course I was upset. It took me a lot of guts and conviction to even want to call him. When I did, I get a 'warm' welcome for it.

It took me more than a week to get hold of some numbers in Pahang, to get to my sister who lives in Shah Alam. In the end I got hold of her, and alhamdulillah, finally, I hear a sincere voice of happiness and I'm glad that I made that call. We talked a little bit and I confirmed my intention to visit her. But I also have another request, for her to get hold of my mom, who recently lost her husband. She wasn't so keen. She said she will try, I'm not sure what that means. I'm sure that I'm the only one of this (if u can call it) family who is actually interested to strengthen ties. I know Rita don't want to have anything to do with our parents, but I feel obligated to, since I'm the one who is farthest from everyone. Rita suprised me the next day by informing me that she actually kept her word. She called our mother and apparently mom promised to visit her at her place when I come. I was exhilarated, but Rita was quick to advice me not to be too hopeful. She obviously don't want me to be dissapointed in case mom does not turn up.

I will be making the trip very soon. I pray that Allah will make the journey smooth for us, and that the reunion be blessed and memorable.