Miserable...

I thought I was lending a hand...
but the hand was quickly cuffed

I thought I was sharing...
Soon tongues started wrangling

I thought I could be a friend...
but clearly, it was one-sided

how could i have
so much to give
yet my intention
roused suspicion

how ironic.
life is.

should i ask Him to take it all back?
the things He has blessed me with?
the things that makes one happy
but doesn't real happiness lies underneath?

i prayed for this day once
i've envisioned it
planned it
that the day will not be complete
if there is no one to share it

yet, there is no one to share it
no one wants to hear

I shed a tear or two today
not suprisingly, there is no one near...