Wonderful moms remembered...

Just when I thought this break is good and healthy, I had to receive a bad news via msn which of course, i did'nt get to open until today, almost a month too late. The mother of my good friend R, passed away of Renal failure. I don't even know what that is at this moment, but the last time I visited R's mom, she was not in a good shape. She already had kidney failure, which caused her to lose both her legs and she has already given up on life long before she passes on.

Inalillahwainalillahrojeeun. I'm dying to call R now, but its almost midnight, and she is probably somewhere in China. I know R don't come here, but I want so badly to tell her how sorry I am for not being there for her at the time when she lost the person she loves most. Of all her siblings, R is is the only one who is supporting her mom and paying the medical bills. Oh Allah, grant R patience and strength to go through a difficult period in her life, and please bless the soul of Arwah Makcik and place her amongst the people that you love. She was a good lady with a wonderful heart, her life was difficult, nevertheless, she is one of the kindest. When she was happy, she made others happy. When I was homeless, she gives me shelter and treats me like one of her daughters. She loved me like her own. May her soul rest in peace.

Just 2 years ago, it was Lilah's mother, my other best friend, who lost her mom to cancer. It was a whirlwind situation and before I can suprise Lilah and her mom at the hospital, I received a call from Lilah and received the sad news. Lilah's mom, like R's mom, ironically, share the same life story. The storyline maybe different, but the ending is the same. Both were mistreated by their husbands, struggled to bring up their kids on a low paying job. I knew both Lilah and R in high school, but separately. Separately I have had good times with each of them, visited their homes, and have a wonderful relationship with them up till now. Through all life's ordeals, somehow, we always reconnected and stayed in touch. Lilah is in Qatar now restarting life afresh with a new job and last I heard, R is in China, after having the chance to live and work in Dubai, Jakarta, Thailand, and many other interesting places. Both are still looking for that man of their dreams, the one who will embrace them, accept them for what they are, and who will continually fill their lonely hearts with happiness. I constantly pray for them, wishing for them the same thing that I have for myself, a good husband and a wonderful family life. It is sometimes hard to see them going through break ups that I have already fore casted as failures, but they insist that was the right one. How to tell your best friend that they are making wrong choices when you have to keep all your life's details to yourself because you don't want to make them feel left out if you squabble about your children's first day at school, or when they made a significant progress and you know other moms will appreciate it. But I love them both like my sisters, and may Allah protect them and keep them in His path, inshaallah, Ameen.

I wish I know how to put this eloquently...
I heard somewhere that Allah sends us tribulations in life to test us and to reward us. All the life's trials are but His way of relieving us of pain in the hereafter, should we be patient and go through it. Because if we were to just meet him with our deeds, it will never be sufficient... ( i hope i made sense..)

To 2 wonderful moms, rest in peace, and may Allah bless your souls for your kindness and patience in this life...